Refuge Last Nite

I'd like to first begin by giving a shout out to" The Refuge Band." Last nite at refuge, we had the most amazing worship. The Holy Spirit was soooo... thick!!!

During worship I really began to feel a tugging on my heart and a burden for the LA missions trip. First I thought God is that really you? And then I did what everyone does... I began to think of all the many reasons why I couldn't go to LA like time off from work, finances, leaving Julia, giving Jordan and Ashlyn time without me on a missions trip and any other excuse that I could come up with.

So then this morning I was reading in Ecclesiates 3:9-10 and this is what I read:

9 What do people really get for all their hard work? 10 I have seen the burden God has placed on us all. 11 Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time.

This was so for me because so often I work really hard and I never won't to miss work. Sometimes I'll miss out on things that don't come around again because Im afraid of not making enough money...just being honest. This is one of the things that God is teaching me about right now. I have to trust him in all things. Sometimes I think that I am a better balancer of the checkbook, but he always does so much better than me. Then this verse showed me that what better time than this for God to have placed LA on my heart... what better time than in his time.

So I then called Jason to see if its even still possible for me to go. I had decided it was all in his hands. My work schedule, finance all of it. The trip was confirmed through Jason when he said that he really needs me to go because of only have 2 adult male leaders. I am so excited!!!

I have put it all in God's hands. I do feel called to make this trip and it feels so awesome. It will definitely be a huge step of faith. I will be missing 16 days of work in June and July with family vacation, summer camp and LA. Wow I am believing in God for the fiances for the rest of Ashlyn's trip, my trip and of course not to mention my monthly salary. But it's all good and it's all up to him.

I don't want to have faith the size of a mustard seed and sometimes I do. I just don't think big enough. Glenn, Jordan and Ashlyn all teach me so much about having big faith. Glenn is so awesome... he thinks big, he worships big and he blesses big. Now he's really being blessed in a new position at work. ANd then to watch Jordan have so much faith for elevate is just incredible. I learn so much from both of my kids. CHILD LIKE FAITH!!!

Anyway sorry if I rambled but I just had to tell everyone...LA BOUND!!!

~paula~